Heart

I'm done with the thug life. I'm not the gangsta that I used to think I was.. my dream is to be in the entertainment industry and either record and make music and act in whatever I can act in, whether it's comedy or suspense, whatever it is that's my dream.. fuck drugs. I almost died last week, for all of you that are out there right now running the streets just imagine me with a heart infection from shooting heroin and ending up in the hospital (by the grace of God!) with 12 hours left before I would have died. THAT LIFE IS LIKE A GAME OF CHESS, AND I'VE BEEN DEFEATED BY MY OWN DEMONS AND TERRIBLE DESICIONS FOR WAY TOO LONG NOW. ITS EITHER LIFE OR DEATH Y'ALL. I'm going to work my way into the entertainment industry, my true passion since I was 6 years old and I'm letting the 'thug life' go. I want a normal existence that consists of TRUE LIVING, not abstinence but real recovery. after nearly dying from heroin and crack my perspective has changed majorly, I'm scared. the possibility of me using again and dying the same night if I do choose to do Heroin or Meth or any substance (especially a substance that I can load up in a syringe) is about a 90% chance. it's either life or death now, and I choose life, I am NOT playing this game anymore. so for anybody that is trying to bring me down and they know I am a garbage can JUNKIE when I'm using just don't even approach me. I don't need friends, especially ones that are only looking out for there own destructive interests. I'm not a 'thug' anymore. I'm a genuinely nice dude, with a serious drug addiction that is now in recovery and wants nothing to do with the old life I used to live. I just want to continue waking up every morning, and being grateful I didn't die last week, and do everything I can to end up producing and recording incredible music and talented acting. and to all those who can't accept my new way of life, BYE. my recovery is more important than anything, without that I have nothing but a heart full of misery...

-ERange  09/02/2015