Kill

always been creative, a symbol that never dies

my eyes have indicated the enemies on the rise

my adversary's me, I flee, a self conflicted casualty

I breathe, another tragedy

emptied out a clip I'm never slackin never slippin 

I hear a bunch of voices thatve been chattin from a distance

am I crazy? 

am I crazy?

AM I FUCKING CRAZY?!?!

evil spirits in my head tell me 'kill, kill'

I see the darkness that's ahead, will I be killed, killed?

put the pistol to you bitches heads, kill, kill

I have no soul in me left, it was killed, killed.

the devil sent me on a quest watch me I will, kill.

I turn the faucet, I see blood coming out in streams

I think I've lost it, I'm lost staring out my balcony

wheres the drugs? 

where's the liquor?

where's the thugs?

where's the bitches?

I know people that would suck a million dicks for the riches 

infested with the greed, combining ecstasy and weed

immortal soul, I would never wish that that was me

I don't wanna live forever, poison is my recipe

this society is packed with dirty villans and entities. 

every day I wake up and yawn, dick bulging

pills and liquor I start indulging. 

until every single vein inside of me starts pulsing.

diagnosed as epileptic I never know when I'll start convulsing. 

and if I'm killed, killed,

I want the world to know because of my betrayals I have no will, will

why would I leave y'all with a damn thing?

you 2 faced fraudulent bitches you make me ill, ill. 

evil spirits in my head tell me 'kill, kill'

I see the darkness that's ahead, will I be killed, killed?

put the pistol to you bitches head, kill, kill

I have no soul in me left, it was killed, killed.

the devil sent me on a quest, and i will, kill.

I feel the pressure, 

I got drugs loaded in the dresser 

got racks on the shelf

am I finally like everybody else?

I'm no longer alone?

just another dog with a bone

I'm like a dog in his zone

sniffin every single substance out from under my nose

everybody in my life has betrayed me

I'm scared to trust another soul I'm going crazy

I'm lazy,

depressed, stressed, don't wanna get out my bed.

I'm left, confessed, pressed, I feel like a mess.

every single day I wanna close my eyes

and lay in bed all day and still fall asleep all night

I've always been a man with a curse of the brain

a thought process of a criminal meant to be confined in chains

because when I'm a free bird I smash into the windshield of a car

shoot myself in the foot, popping lortabs and bars

intravenously using, will I end up killed, killed

lord these drugs got my body on chill, chill

I need a substance

I'm feeling psychotic I'm holding grudges 

got my finger on the trigger while I'm standing out in public

cussin,  at the lord for leaving me here when I'm ready

I'm ready, to keep going got my index finger sweaty

and I'm always feeling edgy, I feel like God left me

I feel like God left me....

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as each day goes by, it's just another chapter in my journey of a man with an addictive personality. a cursed soul, a lost path. my life is a story I try to tell through writing and blogging and music or poetry.. I will not stop pursuing my dreams because my words are the only hope I have for myself and my future. my words are my dreams and my hopes. for everybody that reads these blogs thank you for the support and love as I keep on living my life day by day. it's a roller coaster of a ride and all the support I can get truly helps and inspires me. thank you.

- Ethan Merritt Range